Ma ghar bata bahira niskinu aghadi aina herchu . fairness cream ko ek patalo layer ra tesmathi chariyeko powder le mero gahugoro (ali badi gahu ra kam goro) anuhar lai ramrai sabai tira dhakeko cha ki chaina bhanera ainama dui tin choti herchu. Gori ta dekhinu cha tara saro gori bhaney chahi hoina (natra ta thalma maida halera mukh dubayeko jhai dekhinu cha; ho! Film ma dekhnu bhako hola esto scene). Ma ghar bata niskada ekdam nirdhaka bhayera hidchu; tara din jati jati bitdai gayo charko gham ma bachhako haat ma hune icecream  pagliyera sinka matra baki bhaye saraha mero anuhar ko cream pagliyera jancha.pagliyera pani nabhayera chyapchyap tel roopi magnet bani sabai dhulo dhuwa anuhar ma tasi ajha ma badi gahu rang ko dekhinchu.

Gahugori ma gahu badi huna thalepachi mero atmabiswas testai gai ghatna thalcha, ma kewal yehi sochchu mero aghadi ko manchey le mero anuhar herdai cha. Bato ma hiddai garda side ma bhayeka pasal haru ka sisa ma tauko farkai afu kasto dekhiye chu bhanera herchu. Bhaitra man bata lhaaa bhaney awaz ra mero bahiri kaan le sudha suncha.

 You must be comfortable in your own skin bhanchan. But I don’t feel comfortable in my own skin. Tara kina? Dosh kasko ?afu jasto cha testo roop ma swikarna nasakne mero galti? Ki chitika pareko goro chala bhayeko mero sathiko? Ki bachhai dekhi kali kali bhani maya gari bolaune ti shor haru ko?(maya  thiyo tyo shor ma tara badi gaada bhayecha kya ra manasthiti ma kali bhayeko yaad kahilei najane daag jasari basidiyo)

TV ma jahile ni fair and lovely ko bigyapan auda kina ho kina gahiriyera herthye ma teskai effect hola sayad maile kakshya daas ma yo try garey.malai ajjha yaad cha mero sathi le malai “taa gori dekhya chas aja ta” bhanera comment gareko. Tyo paal ma danga pareko thiye, yehi nai tyo shyan thiyo hola ma afno anuhar ma gahu bhanda badi gori huna sakchu bhanera utsahit bhayeko.

Dherai barsa bhayo maile cream powder lagayeko, kati shade ta gori pani bhaye ,tara ma bhitra ko tyo insecurity ajhai hatna sakeko chaina. Malai yaad cha dherai le “you have such a nice skin. I wish I had your complexion” bhaneko tara yesko pratikriya sworup ma muskurauchu matra. Malai thaha chaina how I should feel bhanera.

Tara euta kura malai achhama lagcha. I have few other gahugoro sathi haru ani I feel they have nice skintone. Thahacha! the grass looks greener on other side bhanera tara yesto soch kasari ma ma hurkiyo? Kahile kahi sochchu hurkiyo nai kina?

“tapai ko lagi ho bhaney chai yo suhaucha” pasal ko saujhi le uha ko wise opinion saman kinnu bhanda aghadi nai sitai ma dinnu hunthyo. Baru sitai ma aune opinion ko satta discount dinu bhayeko bhaye ma sayad khusi hunthye hola. Sayad ma badi gori badi ra gahu kaam bhayeko bhaye uha ko dialogue nai arkai hunthyo. May be “tapai lai ta j pani suhaucha” bhanuhunthyo hola.

Ah! Photo lina malai ekdamai manlagdaina thyo. Camera Shy bhayera chahi pakai hoina, mero gahu anuhar aru goro anuhar bich stand out hunthyo jun kura malai ali man pardaina thyo. Jhan malai daar k ko hunthyo bhane camera man ko lahi lahi ma lagera “Cheeeese” bhani gija dekhine gari hasda mero gahu anuhar ma mera seta (not just gora) daat haru tilllliliiii talkinthye. Lagthyo nahasda goro sanga matra compare hunthyo mero gahu,  aba seto sanga compare bhairaheko cha.

Kati lai lagla yeti saro complexities hunu thik hoina. Huna ta mero man lai pani thiyena, yesto saro kamjor mahasus garna mero dimag lai pani thiyena. Chahada nachahadi, bujhda nabujhdai pani gahugori ma gahu ko rang ali badi nai mahasus hudo rahecha, afno nango anuhar aruko majha lyauna nasakda kata kata afno aatma le khokro maan lai gaali gari  rahado rahecha.