I saw his ghost in the daylight walking in the busy street jammed with people blocking each others’ way. His body covered in a black cloak, I could focus my eyes on his bright face; I kept on staring at him as long he remained visible to my eyes (even few seconds seemed forever to my heart). I saw his ghost ; but the ghost had sensed my presence before I did! His ghost swiftly turned around the corner and disappeared just like a bubble in the air.

The ghost of him was exactly ten steps away from me but I didn’t move fast to cross that nine steps to reach him. I just smiled as even his ghost decided that he was heading wrong direction and just turned around quietly without letting anyone know. My heart remained calm, didn’t throb seeing the ghost…my mind remained rational, didn’t make me do anything crazy (like running to catch the ghost or shout out his name so that everyone would hear except him).

I saw his ghost, just saw his ghost and only saw! After he decided to disappear out of my sight I kept on walking like I never saw his ghost. I turned my back to the place where the ghost melted into thick concrete walls; I didn’t turn my head to look back , I just walked carrying a faint smile in my heart knowing his ghost didn’t scare me anymore!

It was me who had been chasing your memories. I had forced my heart to just drown in those memories, I still do that. All those times I lived in those memories making myself believe in my side of the story and feeding myself with all them beautiful dreams. But the dream you made me see shook the castle I built with all those fragile blocks of dear hopes. I saw you in my dreams today after so long… I came running to see you (just like in the movies) then just as my feet became certain that it was you who was standing there by the corner, they suddenly paused… refused to take another step. As if they knew what was right for me, they decided not to help me turn the corner of the long alley I had run to see you (my feet became my best friend… warning me not to go). My head beat the stubbornness of my feet, it just managed to tilt just to look over the wall and then see your face! My heart skipped three beats!…every part of my body froze except the eyes… they memorized your face in a second! After a second my feet got furious and just stormed out of the alley… they were so angry, they kept on running till I ran out of breath. You were just a meter away from me but I couldn’t (didn’t) call, couldn’t (didn’t) touch… only thing I did was ran away from you;how did I run away and not stare at you forever!

“I am a lost soul” – I say

“I will hold your hand” – you say

“I am all heart broken” – I say

“I will let you heal” – you say

“I need time” – I say

“I will just wait here” – you say

“I am really confused” – I say

“I will help you find clues” – you say

“I am hopeless” – I say

“I will love you” – you say

“I am so amazingly insane” – I say

“I will love you more” – you say

“I am scared” – I say

“I am not him” – you say!